Tuhan selalu ada. Dia tidak pernah tidur. hari ini, satu pelajaran penuh makna yang sangat berharga. Tuhan, satu-satunya. Maha Baik, Maha Mengatur. Tapi Tuhan tidak mau makhluknya manja, Tuhan tidak mau makhluknya hanya berdoa dan berpasrah padanya. harus berusaha, tapi Tuhan tidak pernah membiarkan makhluknya menanggung usaha yang terlalu berat. semua ada kemampuannya. kemampuan ada batasnya. and God has never sleep to watch each limit.
In my case, my God is Allah.
so I woke up early in the morning like 6 am but I slept again. skipping dawn pray, because i'm too lazy to take wudhu. and wake up again for 8 am then do my best as fast as I can to take a bath, and run to Tuol Sleng Genocide museum.
from my place, me mate place in the riverside with a motorbike I pay for $1 (tuktuk ask for $3). genocide museum's ticket is $2 and if you come by before 10 am or 3pm you'll get the movie.
a little bit about the museum, it's really worth to visit for you who like history. tuol sleng show us how bad human being could be. they still preserved the jail, with a bed that was the victim used. and the picture how was the owner of the room die. also a one room for so many prisoners. and I was too afraid to get inside. I won't come there alone twice I guess. it's quite emotional, frightened, make me want to vomit, and depressed me. they still had the victim's cloths and the killing machine. plus the story how was it used.
i came back to my hostel around 11am to pack up and check out. so sad because I have to be separated with nice liverpoolian (Tom) and Germanist (Mark). I don't know if I can make to meet them again. they were so nice. If you guys read my notes, just remember. come and visit bogor, I will be your guide for free. you just have to pay for yourself. and thanks for compliments my english. I guess it's not that good. lol
and here it comes to the $9 bus from phnom penh to saigon. since it's the cheapest one I guess, so not to expect a good serve from the driver or co driver. you have to put your bagage by yourself. no translation, since there is just me the tourist in the bus. the other is local people.
then here it comes to the saigon.
at first I refuse the motorbike who offer me 20.000 VND to Pham ngu lao from the bus stop. but I choose taxi to keep me safe. then taxi costs me 36.000 VND. and here it goes. I hardly find my hotel. since I have nothing to show, no map, no smartphone, no address and all i know is just in pham ngu lao hong kong kaiteki hotel.
I just walk around the pham ngu lao. the pub, the club, and im here all alone walking down the street finding nowhere.
after one hour walk i try to rent a becak. he ask me for 100.000 VND. so crazy you old man. i have tired enough since i have no idea where to go. then I found an internet cafe. I try to make the map to the hotel then picture up with my camera. but it didn't work out. 30 minutes gone by nothing.
im still alone in the street, keep on praying and wishing. but then I know I skipped the dawn pray, and the zuhur also ashar. so that i deserve ignorance from my God. but I don't know where to wish but God. so I just keep my self wishing to God (Some other guy who don't trust the existence of God will never believe me). but yet, I still wishing to nowhere. keep my heart hang to an empty hall. which I believe that where the God is.
and 30 minutes goes by. nothing I found. not even the places that shown in map. I got mad. I got mad to God and challenging him. I whispered to my heart, God if you really exist then please show me. one tear has fall apart. I'm so tired. it was almost two hours for me to walk and find nothing. i'm tired of this difficult time. but then I know God want me to struggle.
then I stopped a taxi. I give up and stop a taxi. I don't have much money but if the taxi can take me safe and soundly to the hotel i will pay whatever it cost.
me "can you help me to find this?"
driver "yes can I help you" and he saw my camera. at first he was confused for what I pointed. and then I show him another clues. then he smile. "oh yes" he came out from his car, into the road and show me the way. "this way, and turn left" he said. I was amazingly shocked. I thought the taxi will take me and charge me a hard price but he didn't. instead, he left his car on and show me the way which I can go by myself. I said thank you and walk out. that Vinasun Taxi driver would be granted for so much. I won't take another taxi if i'm in saigon.
then I walk. later on, I lost again. it's way too crowded the place he just showed. and I almost couldn't make it until I saw one clue from the map, is really beside me. I keep on walking, passing the foreigners dancing and happy with the bar. I know some people saw me weirdly, but i never care. I remember how Mark told me to, "You know I have this height and I was like a giant in asia and you just have to make fun of it. you know, sometimes there's a girl that stand in front of me and I was right in her back and when she turns her back, she was scream loudly and scarily. I was just ha ha ha, you are frightened I'm a monster"
so I just keep on walking until I found nowhere. then there comes a mother. an old mother. she is a vietnamese, very thin, very wrinkled. she talk in vietnamese and pointed my bag. I saw nothing happened in my bag so i just about to ignore her. I didn't understand what does she say.
until it comes to the crossroads.
again, I have no idea where to go. just standing with an empty stare. I was just too tired.
and here she comes. that old mother with white hair and skinny body. "do you want to find a room?" amazing she does speak english. "no I want to find mine" i answered. "where is your hotel?" she asked. "Hongkong kaiteki hotel" I said. then she pointed out, "there there" and she pushed me into the road where the crossing lamp is green. be carefull. she scream.
and Oh God. when I was about to give up, here it comes to your guard. I can say anything but alhamdulillah.
I got nothing in my hand, no map, no smartphone, no picture, and I just get my hotel after 2 hours walk.
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